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April 20, 2012


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A thought.

Journal Entry: Fri Apr 20, 2012, 1:44 PM
  • Mood: Stumped
  • Listening to: Wasted Penguinz
  • Reading: Rough draft of United
  • Watching: Sticky Buddy Dub
  • Playing: Mario 3D Land
Death. We are who we are because of our experiences and influences, right? What we think of ourselves, other people, other things, crap beyond, etc. That stuff influences our choices, and our choices further build on us, right? Just brain activity. Electrical impulses. That's what keeps us conscious. What will happen when we die? When all those electrical impulses just...stop, how on Earth would that work? Yeah, the whole light and a tunnel, but if it's true that there's nothing beyond that, how could all our previous thoughts, experiences, choices, affections, hates, the part that makes each of us a unique person...just fizzle out? We wouldn't even be able to comprehend death, because we wouldn't be there. We wouldn't be able to see our life flash before us, because it's all gone. And we couldn't even think about that, because we'd be gone.
For me, that's a horrid and terrifying thing. We're always thinking, working, sleeping, taking a crap, or participating in intercourse. And to imagine being unable to think...STUCK in non-exsistance, your soul just...a vegetable.

We create with our thoughts. Music, books, structures, cars. We ourselves are gods, having the ability to create whole universes, filled with life, and knowing the feelings and thoughts of every being on it. For that kind of power to simply poof away is sick; every day, gods are disappearing, never to be found again, impossible to replace, for we're all different.

Losing so many creators and so many unknown worlds. It's dismal.

I guess that's the main reason why I believe in an afterlife. You don't just drop life into the world only to snuff it out.

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LordBoop Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2012  Student Digital Artist
god im having the most existential crisis I've ever had at the moment and just had to read through this journal and some of the comments.

I'm taking earth-space science right now...knew I shouldn't have taken that course. Whenever I learn about space, how we are just a tiny spec, eventually the sun will die and with it everything on Earth. Even if I do leave something behind, something to be remembered by, it won't matter anyways. Everything we find important is just meaningless.

And along with this existential crisis is a horrible fear of death I have. I hope for an afterlife,everybody does, but I just can't make sense of it. Does everybody just become ghosts or something? Do we all go to some magical place? Are we going to be trapped in our own minds, stuck in a black void, or something else? What about every other living specimen that ever existed? Even not on earth..the universe is billions of years old, and full of planets. There has to be many with life on them, where do all their spirits go? I can't get this one person's word out of my head.."What happens when you die? Same thing that happened before you were born. If you don't exist then you do not experience."

Gosh, I wish I could just go back to being worry-free. I had this same issue back in elementary school, and it was the worst time ever...I can't believe it's happening again. Sorry for the long comment on this old post, I just really had to get that off my chest.
Ruko-kun Featured By Owner May 17, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
So you think you're a god? TYPICAL FAMOUS PERSON ATTITUDE. :P

I know what you mean. I have a feeling that there's got to be something after you die. It's almost impossible to imagine absolute nothingness. However, I don't "believe" in an afterlife, because I don't think that's sufficient evidence to prove there is an afterlife. I also think it's crazy that the universe sprung out of a singularity, so I have a feeling there must be a god. But again, It's a general policy of mine not to believe in things that I can't prove, so...

Just because you can't imagine something, isn't a reason to believe it exists, IMO. I just don't believe in faith.

Isn't philosophy great? :D
JohnPariah Featured By Owner May 4, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I read the comments and thought "do people never really think this deep?"

Do they believe what people tell them is the undisputed truth? Do they never question the workings of the world and everything in it? People look at this journal and say "Wow you're so deep", but I think "This is an awesome topic! We should delve deeper, release our inner thoughts, and try our best to explain it." Is the world running low on great thinkers? Will the next generation live off of the advancements of their fathers and never take it further themselves?

Are people really this shallow?
ashwolf113 Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
The afterlife is real to me, I think that after people go to Hell, Heaven, or the Underworld, they get resurrected at some point, and come back as almost the same person. Yes, that means that I think criminals will come back again, but it's just how things are for me. Our brains try to come up with a way to understand life, and everybodies take on it is different.
SkulduggeryPleasantG Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
You know what? It's not.
SkulduggeryPleasantG Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Maybe it's not going in my journal... o.O
SkulduggeryPleasantG Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I guess this makes you a great thinker. As for me, I'm not as good. Things clutter up my mind too much. I guess this is a side effect of growing up, but I can actually think very deep thoughts. Thoughts so deep that if you were ever able to read them, you would fall. You would never die because you would never stop falling. The thought would keep you alive and young. You would never age.

Is this what would happen if we could enter others' consciousness? Or would feelings overcome us and consume us? Or would we be able to slip away and continue our own lives? What if we were stuck in a realm so different from our real life? At that point, 'real' life would be the consciousness of another?

I question you, EpicGuitar. I question all of you. It's strange how you can get so consumed in one thought, and it can link to thousands of others. The simple question, "why is the sky blue?" can lead to a completely different one, such as, "why did my parents divorce?"

This is what I think of when I think solemn thoughts. I ask myself, "Why did my parents divorce?" I know the answer. But I want to be lied to. I want to hear, "We didn't divorce, sweetie. We are all here. Together and happy."

It's not easy, growing up with seperated parents. I'm not sure if you know this by experience, but I know a lot of people do. I also know that people have it worse than me. People's mothers and fathers die. They beat each other. They beat their CHILD. Even though I'm sad my parents aren't together, I'm grateful I have both of their love.

Forgive me if this comment's a tad long, but I want people to hear this message. It's going in my journal, which you should check out, because I write stories in there. :) I guess I'm back to normal. :)
Balathehedgehog9 Featured By Owner Apr 25, 2012  Student Digital Artist
The concept of "death" is when all of your senses stop and so does you thoughts. When you are unconsious and not breathing, i guess that's temporarily dead. All deaths end in the brain shutting down some way. for example, Blood loss. Blood carries oxygen to your brain and without oxygen, the brain turns off. I guess. I dont believe in the afterlife becuase the who temporarily dying thing . I believe that if that's "dead", then if no one talks about traveling to heaven, in their minutes when not living after they are revived.

That's just my view on this.
Balathehedgehog9 Featured By Owner Apr 25, 2012  Student Digital Artist
who --> *whole
*insert "because" in final sentance in first paragrah before "if"
SparkNotes Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Wow. That really make me think. o-o
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